What Are You Doing With Your Body?

by Stacey

Tonight I had a bunch of opportunities – I could go to a Wave night and sweat my prayers. I could spend a few hours at the Korean spa and stretch out in the saunas. I could curl up on the couch with a book and a blanket.

So many choices, each good in their own way.

I decided to head to the yoga studio for Yoga and Drumming. I’m one of those people who doesn’t just hear music, I feel it in my bones. And that goes double for live music. So tonight, as the drummers did that thing they do that reaches into my core, I found myself moving through my postures for people who are limited in their freedom to move. I danced for people who don’t have the opportunity to dance. I used my voice for people who aren’t safe to speak their truth. I breathed for people who can’t breathe on their own anymore. And I rested for people whose bodies and minds and hearts are so traumatized, they can’t let go and relax.

Did it look pretty?  I don’t know. I had my eyes closed for most of the time, rendering me invisible, at least to myself. And in reality, it really doesn’t matter. What matters most is that I took the risk to face my own chaos head on, allowed it to flow through me without getting snagged on the hooks of my story, let it move me without worrying about who was watching, released some of the fear that wants to keep me playing small, and came out on the other side, feeling a little less stuck and a little more free.

And here’s the thing; I didn’t plan for all of that. It’s just what happened. I think that if I had arrived expecting some outcome, it all would have been different. I didn’t do it because I felt obligated. Nobody told me I had to, or else. I wasn’t looking for anything other than the chance to move a little, maybe shake things up a bit. And that is how healing starts, one choice at a time, stepping a little outside of our comfort zone, allowing ourselves to adopt a fresh perspective as often as we need to.

So the question becomes this:  What are you doing with your body? How are you using it to offer your own brand of sweet relief to this world that is in such turmoil today?

{ 4 comments… read them below or add one }

Desiree Adaway March 30, 2011 at 4:44 am

This was just lovely. Thanks for dancing for those that could not…including me.

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Stacey March 30, 2011 at 1:31 pm

Thanks for reading – so glad you enjoyed it.

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Christine March 30, 2011 at 5:41 pm

Such beautiful words for such an awesome experience.

*That* is why I have only missed maybe 3 of those classes. In the almost 2 years they’ve been happening, I have gone from being the non-graceful clumsy scared to dance and act silly girl…to a graceful sensual wild woman- who was told last night that she had moved in such a way that made that person want to move that way. Wow.

@Desiree- I dont know where you live or your circumstances, but I encourage you to find some place, some way that you can dance. I had forgotten how, and for years was too uncomfortable in my own body and skin to move freely. It has been so empowering to rediscover my inner dancer. 🙂

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Stacey March 31, 2011 at 3:26 am

Thanks, Christine! Loved dancing with you last night –

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